ALICIA KEYS.

I like Part 2 better.

Tom’s Monday. I can sense that my boss dislikes me. Everyday I’m just counting down…

2010…

HAPPY 2010!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!

HAPPY DECIDING YOUR NEW YEAR RESOLUTIONS!

For me, I resolute not to make any. But then, it’s high time I sit down and consider about my career. Anyone with suitable job offerings?

And, Avatar was not as great as I had thought it would be? The 3D goggles made my nose bridge and ears ache can? So much so for all the hype.

I WISH FOR…

 

So perhaps the detractors were right, wishes do not come true.

All I want now, is purely to spend some quiet moments during this Christmas season. Am on leave this week but nevertheless, still received work related smses.  I’m so tired of containing my anger that I think I might be already numb to it all.  Been feasting a lot lately… thanks to the boy’s birthday and various Xmas celebrations. Supa sinful!!

Prolly gonna bury myself in work the next couple of days (yes, work from home, dahlin) so to wrap things up… Here’s wishing you all a Blessed Christmas and have a great 2010 ahead *pops confetti*

HOHOHO~*

 

too many pictures taken durin the boyf’s bday. me likey this best! lol.

 

 

happy birthday to you, you are born in the zoo…

 

 

annual gift xchange wif my Kitty

 

our anniv. bloody steak and yummy HUGE onion loaf meal!

 

Oh God. It’s 4.01am now and I gotta wake up early for turkey collection later. Sweet dreams!

 

p/s: I made a bold decision recently!

 

HEYAAA!

Wow wee… How’s it going for you?

It suddenly hit me that I haven’t updated for donkey years. 2009’s almost come to an end and what can I say? It has been a totally shitty and fucked up year which scarred and drained all my guts outta me. Hopefully 2010 will be better… Work is something I don’t even wanna get started about because it’ll just make me feel lousy and depressed. Super unhealthy, I know! The boyf even demanded irritatedly, “Why can’t you look for a normal admin job?”

Normal? What constitutes normal? 9am to 6pm, deskbound, paperwork? That’s exactly what yours truly is doing! Except that I do OT pretty often, work on weekends (sorry, all not claimable), run around like a flustered hen in the office and deal with wayyyy too much paper, personnel and system matters. Doesn’t help that the annual staff appraisal is here and I’m beyond speechless on how some people rate themselves.

And oh, being forced to clear some annual leave (can only bring forward 6 days, damnit!) so I am effectively working only for 2 weeks in December. The end result? Everyday for 4 days straight I have people calling and texting me about work related problems which they cannot apparantly recall or resolve. I shouldn’t be selfish right? So I helped them to my own expense (hello! I am friggin on leave and sleeping!) but I must stress that I am not God. My dear boss chided me for not doing a “proper” handover before I left. Feeling sour about this because I already left specific instructions with the respective parties!! How the hell am I supposed to predict that they cannot handle in my absence, I really dunno… I have to be there for everyone before work, during lunch, after work, when I’m on MC… and now? Even when I am out of office. If this is not bad enough, what is? Fortunately I have a superbly understanding boyf who has been patiently listening to me whining. Keep it up!!!

Goodness gracious. I am so sorry you had to read all the above. Time to work (yes, now!), cya all next year week… Interviewing an ex colleague tmr… Hmm…

SHINGZ.

 

should I get a new laptop?

why must you fail me???

SIGH.

 

am being forced starting to clear my annual leave but guess what. on leave also will receive calls from office. haha? that is so SHINGZ!!!!!!! perhaps I should invest in a private line so that I can disappear from the face of earth when I am out of office.

 

RARE.

 

Zhen nan de that I’m here to blog. Fucking bad mood lor!! I seriously cannot tahan tactless people. My threshold for stupidity and lack of sensitivity is at such a low till I wanna tear that fella’s hair out. Why can’t such people just rot in hell and make our (our = got EQ folks like you and I) lives better? Really!!

Know what’s the worst of the worst not? When that fella is IQ plus EQ ling dan!!! What on earth are they here for? Ya I know I sound damn bitchy but I guess that fucktard deserves nothing less than this. Burn baby, burn. Usually I’m not so mean. Definitely.

 

On a side note, some pictures to share before the great disappearing act begins…

 

family dinner cum bday celebration.

 

vegetarian food lo.

 

our special day.

 

@ black canyon coffee with da jie. yummay~

 

Last pic of the day….

 

bling bling toilet sign! coolness!

 

=D

Am starting to clear my annual leave so I took a day off on Friday. Wrestled the boyf out of the bed and made a decision to starve ourselves since we’re gonna have a heavyyy dinner. Called the restaurant and was told that they’re fully booked for the day. We managed to get a table nevertheless. And if you’re wondering, yeah, we did it in a civilized manner.

I meant to blog, really. But my new addiction is taking up so much of my time. Till then.

DD.

 

We had a big fight again and it sure hurts a whole damn lot.

He told me once that we can always kiss and makeup for now, but later questioned what good will it do in the future. The thing about him is that he is way too rational, making me seem as if I’m the crazy one. As to his remarks, I don’t wanna know. I don’t wanna imagine how I’ll get by alone. All I can think of is, just how much I want him to be beside me. I’m having problems by remaining sane as I’m sitting at home now. This feeling is so wrong, so wrong only because I won’t hear an additional heartbeat tonight as I try to go to sleep.

He is my addiction, and I’m in so deep.

 Those three words are overrated, but I’ll say them anyways. ILU. Really do.

 

1-FOR-1 DEALS.

 

Fondue Day with the family

 

 

The mom, sis, boyf and I went to Dempsy one lazy Saturday evening for some rich, sinful and lip-smacking dark choc fondue! Nice, but pity the portion is abit too small leh. Seems like they’ve replaced certain items with cheaper substitutes as well. Ah, the poor enconomy I see…

 

 

Da Jie.

 

twin loves.

 

the food.

 

orgasmic~

 

the platter.

 

 

Later on, we went for a short stroll to Jones and bought dark choc macadamia nuts! Shocked me coz a small packet costs so much.  But that’s not the most shocking. Rather, the thing that caught me by surprise is when my family suggested to have ice cream at Ben & Jerry’s! Omg. I thought we just had dessert…

 

Stunned.

 

 

getting cosy?

 

fainttt.

 

 

Recently all the stupid 1-for-1 deals really did me in. Went to the Swensen’s ice cream buffet at ION and frankly, I don’t think it’s fantastic. The pastries suck BIG time and the only thing that scores is the choc fondue (again).  Definitely not worth the money for small eaters or those who don’t really fancy sweet stuff. Made me pretty sick after that.

 

 

To satisfy the boyf’s mad craving for STEAK, we went to Hog’s Breath as well. Admittedly, I’m not so much of a steak person. Bring on the chicken or fish, coz they are good for me anyday! Haha. So it was not unexpected that my fav dish there is the chicken cesar salad with sauteed potato. Yum Yum!

 

 

prawn salad n curly fries were not too bad either.

 

sedap!

 

Guess that pretty much wraps up my 1-for-1 guilt trip. So fat that my boyf is kicking me out of the house now to go for a run. I hate jogging!!! Grr. To make things worse, last week I kena jiao sai on my knuckles while jogging nor. Ma de. Don’t laugh. Your turn will come soon

 

 

…

 

I feel so trapped. Everywhere I turn, I don’t have an outlet to express what’s bothering me. I guess it’s been tooooo long and the side effects are finally kicking in. I am unhappy. And it makes me even more unhappy when the people around me know that I’m unhappy and they won’t try to make things better.

IS IT REALLY A LOT TO ASK FOR? 

Everytime somebody drums into me to give and take, I try. I honestly tried. But why is it that when I give, people take so easily like it’s no biggie, like it’s a norm, a new standard? Everytime somebody tells me between two, there is definitely one party who will sacrifice more than the other, I accept it. But why is it that I have to be the one who usually sacrifices more?