HEYAAA!

Wow wee… How’s it going for you?

It suddenly hit me that I haven’t updated for donkey years. 2009’s almost come to an end and what can I say? It has been a totally shitty and fucked up year which scarred and drained all my guts outta me. Hopefully 2010 will be better… Work is something I don’t even wanna get started about because it’ll just make me feel lousy and depressed. Super unhealthy, I know! The boyf even demanded irritatedly, “Why can’t you look for a normal admin job?”

Normal? What constitutes normal? 9am to 6pm, deskbound, paperwork? That’s exactly what yours truly is doing! Except that I do OT pretty often, work on weekends (sorry, all not claimable), run around like a flustered hen in the office and deal with wayyyy too much paper, personnel and system matters. Doesn’t help that the annual staff appraisal is here and I’m beyond speechless on how some people rate themselves.

And oh, being forced to clear some annual leave (can only bring forward 6 days, damnit!) so I am effectively working only for 2 weeks in December. The end result? Everyday for 4 days straight I have people calling and texting me about work related problems which they cannot apparantly recall or resolve. I shouldn’t be selfish right? So I helped them to my own expense (hello! I am friggin on leave and sleeping!) but I must stress that I am not God. My dear boss chided me for not doing a “proper” handover before I left. Feeling sour about this because I already left specific instructions with the respective parties!! How the hell am I supposed to predict that they cannot handle in my absence, I really dunno… I have to be there for everyone before work, during lunch, after work, when I’m on MC… and now? Even when I am out of office. If this is not bad enough, what is? Fortunately I have a superbly understanding boyf who has been patiently listening to me whining. Keep it up!!!

Goodness gracious. I am so sorry you had to read all the above. Time to work (yes, now!), cya all next year week… Interviewing an ex colleague tmr… Hmm…

SHINGZ.

 

should I get a new laptop?

why must you fail me???

SIGH.

 

am being forced starting to clear my annual leave but guess what. on leave also will receive calls from office. haha? that is so SHINGZ!!!!!!! perhaps I should invest in a private line so that I can disappear from the face of earth when I am out of office.

 

RARE.

 

Zhen nan de that I’m here to blog. Fucking bad mood lor!! I seriously cannot tahan tactless people. My threshold for stupidity and lack of sensitivity is at such a low till I wanna tear that fella’s hair out. Why can’t such people just rot in hell and make our (our = got EQ folks like you and I) lives better? Really!!

Know what’s the worst of the worst not? When that fella is IQ plus EQ ling dan!!! What on earth are they here for? Ya I know I sound damn bitchy but I guess that fucktard deserves nothing less than this. Burn baby, burn. Usually I’m not so mean. Definitely.

 

On a side note, some pictures to share before the great disappearing act begins…

 

family dinner cum bday celebration.

 

vegetarian food lo.

 

our special day.

 

@ black canyon coffee with da jie. yummay~

 

Last pic of the day….

 

bling bling toilet sign! coolness!

 

=D

Am starting to clear my annual leave so I took a day off on Friday. Wrestled the boyf out of the bed and made a decision to starve ourselves since we’re gonna have a heavyyy dinner. Called the restaurant and was told that they’re fully booked for the day. We managed to get a table nevertheless. And if you’re wondering, yeah, we did it in a civilized manner.

I meant to blog, really. But my new addiction is taking up so much of my time. Till then.

DD.

 

We had a big fight again and it sure hurts a whole damn lot.

He told me once that we can always kiss and makeup for now, but later questioned what good will it do in the future. The thing about him is that he is way too rational, making me seem as if I’m the crazy one. As to his remarks, I don’t wanna know. I don’t wanna imagine how I’ll get by alone. All I can think of is, just how much I want him to be beside me. I’m having problems by remaining sane as I’m sitting at home now. This feeling is so wrong, so wrong only because I won’t hear an additional heartbeat tonight as I try to go to sleep.

He is my addiction, and I’m in so deep.

 Those three words are overrated, but I’ll say them anyways. ILU. Really do.

 

1-FOR-1 DEALS.

 

Fondue Day with the family

 

 

The mom, sis, boyf and I went to Dempsy one lazy Saturday evening for some rich, sinful and lip-smacking dark choc fondue! Nice, but pity the portion is abit too small leh. Seems like they’ve replaced certain items with cheaper substitutes as well. Ah, the poor enconomy I see…

 

 

Da Jie.

 

twin loves.

 

the food.

 

orgasmic~

 

the platter.

 

 

Later on, we went for a short stroll to Jones and bought dark choc macadamia nuts! Shocked me coz a small packet costs so much.  But that’s not the most shocking. Rather, the thing that caught me by surprise is when my family suggested to have ice cream at Ben & Jerry’s! Omg. I thought we just had dessert…

 

Stunned.

 

 

getting cosy?

 

fainttt.

 

 

Recently all the stupid 1-for-1 deals really did me in. Went to the Swensen’s ice cream buffet at ION and frankly, I don’t think it’s fantastic. The pastries suck BIG time and the only thing that scores is the choc fondue (again).  Definitely not worth the money for small eaters or those who don’t really fancy sweet stuff. Made me pretty sick after that.

 

 

To satisfy the boyf’s mad craving for STEAK, we went to Hog’s Breath as well. Admittedly, I’m not so much of a steak person. Bring on the chicken or fish, coz they are good for me anyday! Haha. So it was not unexpected that my fav dish there is the chicken cesar salad with sauteed potato. Yum Yum!

 

 

prawn salad n curly fries were not too bad either.

 

sedap!

 

Guess that pretty much wraps up my 1-for-1 guilt trip. So fat that my boyf is kicking me out of the house now to go for a run. I hate jogging!!! Grr. To make things worse, last week I kena jiao sai on my knuckles while jogging nor. Ma de. Don’t laugh. Your turn will come soon

 

 

…

 

I feel so trapped. Everywhere I turn, I don’t have an outlet to express what’s bothering me. I guess it’s been tooooo long and the side effects are finally kicking in. I am unhappy. And it makes me even more unhappy when the people around me know that I’m unhappy and they won’t try to make things better.

IS IT REALLY A LOT TO ASK FOR? 

Everytime somebody drums into me to give and take, I try. I honestly tried. But why is it that when I give, people take so easily like it’s no biggie, like it’s a norm, a new standard? Everytime somebody tells me between two, there is definitely one party who will sacrifice more than the other, I accept it. But why is it that I have to be the one who usually sacrifices more?

 

GOING GETS TOUGH.

 

Admit it. How many times have you envied that fella there for whatever he/she has? Be it the intelligence, appearance, wealth or charisma etc etc… But did it ever occur to you how much hard work he/she had invested?

Some people think you have it easy. Some people think you have it good.

 

My burden is weighing me down and nobody fully understands. I cannot share it with anyone too. The saddest part of all? There is nothing about me that is enviable about.

Tough luck.

 

SO NOT ME…?

 

Before bedtime last night, I told the monkey some stuff and all he could manage was his classic stunned expression, accompanied with an uncertain “Are you okay? This is so NOT you.”

I repent. Yes, me.

 

I just wanna be a better person. Not like I was that bad to begin with anyway. Wahaha. Thanks to my crappy lappy, I cannot  blog, cannot msn, cannot upload pics, cannot this cannot that basically. Life’s lovely. My sista’s 7.5″ lappy (prolly lighter than a Twilight novel) is straining my aching shoulders. Ciao for now.

 

BACKBACKBACK!

 

 

GUESS WHO’S BACK?

I went on the short getaway with high hopes of returning feeling rejuvenated and all ready to charge, but it left me reallyyy tired. Shopping was like madness in the city that never sleeps and I’m in dire need of a shiok massage again. Hur.

And to your dismay, I’m pleased to announce that the pix will only come in another separate entry. Hehehe. If I owe you pictures, I owe you pictures! That’s that!

 

 

big brother’s birthday!

 

cake from Glace and dinner at Whole Earth.

 

I’m craving for some serious cheese cake man. Damn.

 

 

we had so much to eat. my greedy one loved the food there.

 

my family

 

sometime back at this chi-chi restaurant… can’t remb the name though.

 

his carbonara.

 

my prawn pasta. portion’s small but it tasted goodie.

 

trigger happy Cherry. muahaha.

 

 

Haven’t had the urge to blog coz there’s just too much on my plate and too little time. Besides, my cranky laptop is throwing tantrums!! Argh. It’s only 2 years old can? Qi si wo le. Back to the corporate cell tomorrow and I’m so not looking forward. Think most prolly the trip did me in. When’s the next hollerday? *pouts*

Super fat and flabby now. Can somebirdy gimme some exercise tips? Tmd…